Numbing

Your lies make apathy so damn appealing

Broken promises make me crave seconds of unfeeling

I press my hands tightly around the ears to my heart

Hoping to dull the throbbing flesh you tore apart

Tourniquet for the bleeding memories that now mutilate

Hallucinations of years full of smiles we’ll never cocreate

Now all I wish for is neutral button, some relief

Indifference to you, to us, the grief of belief

I fantasize about a day when I can’t remember your name

Acute amnesia to your face, your voice, the moment that you came

Please someone give me your max dose of Novocain

Meds that destroy attachments and hide the pain

This lesson is too hard for me to chew

God, all I want is to be numb to you