CGC, Thank you for your careful read and thoughtful response, truly. This is what I call a 3AM love poem - almost never published and /or deleted several times. This one like most 3AM love poems, took only 20 minutes to get down, but its the remnants of days of emotional uneasiness and the futile processing of the forgotten and unknowable. Journaled feelings to dislodge the stuck in the gut kind of poem. I wrote it outside smoking on my stoop, after a heavy weekend with unexpected endings and shapeshifting understandings of relationships. I needed to just say these unperfected feelings to someone else- to see and hear them outside of the raw, punishing gut and mind. So I put it out for my honest friends, the artist and playful dreamers like you, to see if it is true enough to stick or poke. I probably had just the right amount of smoke and drink to publish it before my rereads conned my ego into leaving it in drafts.

Now I'm glad I did. Cheers, friend.